Here I Go.Scream My Lungs Out
Jan. 25th, 2004
10:20 pm - whoa. lots of quizzies.
You are Kermit the Frog.
You are reliable, responsible and caring. And you
have a habit of waving your arms about
"Hi ho!" "Yaaay!" and
"How Green Was My Mother"
LAST BOOK READ:
"Surfin' the Webfoot: A Frog's Guide to the
Sitting in the swamp playing banjo.
"Hmm, my banjo is wet."
What Muppet are you?
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You are going to Marry orlando Bloom. He will
always treat you right and is very romantic. He
will do anything for you. He is very polite and
has deep brown eyes and is very good looking
(which is another plus!). He can make anythind
cheesy look really good (like sliding down
stairs on a shield shooting arrows or wearing
pointy ears for example). Congrats!!
Which male celebrity are you going to marry? (10 results that have pics!)
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You're bubblegum!!! You love to have a good time,
and enjoy being around others who feel the same
way. You tend to be the life of the party, and
people like to be around you as much as they
Which kind of candy are you?
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Congratulations!! You're a colorful and
What Drink Are You?
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10:16 pm - survey
Spell your name with bands:
All american rejects
New Found Glordy
2) Have you ever had a song written about you? No, I can't say that i have.
3) What song makes you cry? Usually songs that have to deal with best friends and people that died.
4) What song makes you happy? ummm Alanis Moressette.
5) What do you like to listen to before bed? Yellowcard. All american rejects, the starting line
a p p e a r a n c e
HEIGHT: 5' 1
HAIR COLOR: brown with red highlites
SKIN COLOR: tanish
EYE COLOR: hazel
PIERCINGS: ears. want my bellybutton and nose
TATTOOS: nah uh
r i g h t n o w
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: blue sweatpants
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: view from heaven.yellowcard
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: chocolate turtles
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: freezing.
HOW ARE YOU? happy.
d o y o u
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: on boats.
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: yes.
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: no.
LIKE TO DRIVE?: driving is the best.
f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: whatever is on.
CONDITIONER: garneir fructis.
BOOK: number seven fumbles.
MAGAZINE: cosmo girl.seventeen.anything that looks goood.
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: snapple.
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: beer. screwdriver.anything with alcohol.
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: hang out with friends and mike.
BAND OR GROUP or SINGER or RAPPER: ahh too many. Mostly punk tho.
h a v e y o u
BROKEN THE LAW: no.
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: yes.
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE:yes.
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: no.
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: yes.
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY:no.
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: yes.
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: yes.
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: yes.
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: yes.
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: of course.
l o v e
BOYFRIEND: yes. mike i love you.
CHILDREN: not yet. hopefully.
CURRENT CRUSH: mike.
BEEN IN LOVE?:yes.
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: yes.
BEEN HURT?: yes.
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: saying this, doing that, not saying or doing this and that.
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS:no.
r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB:only in the summer.
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: yellowcard. ocean avenue.
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: red.
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: everything.
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST?: mike and shira.
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: no idea.
WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS?: people i can count on.
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: anything.
w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t
TIME YOU CRIED?: the other night.
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?:hah. never?
YOU GOT E-MAIL: Today.
THING YOU PURCHASED: dinner.
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: sex in the city.
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: umm. somethings gotta give.
y o u r t h o u g h t s o n
ABORTION: Pro choice.
TEENAGE SMOKING: sure.
SPICE GIRLS:used to like them. Fun music to blast aloud and sing to in the car with friends.
DREAMS: they keep you sleeping.
Jan. 24th, 2004
05:57 pm - yummy
You are Orange.
You are outgoing and optomistic. You always try to
find the bright spot in everything. You are
energetic and people are naturally attracted to
you. However, you are not always sure of what
your purpose or goals are.
Most Compatible With: Fresh Mint
Which Tic-Tac Flavor Are You?
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I really love Tic Tac's. Not only does it give you fresh breath, but tastes good too.
Jan. 23rd, 2004
09:37 am - Rawr
Last night i really didn't have a chance to write anything. I got home pretty late from swim practice and then I sorta passed out on the couch just in enough time to take a shower. I spoke to Quick about my friend Taylor and how they should get together. And he also shared his problems with me. I like when people i don't know confide in me because it makes me feel needed. And that they trust me enough to know that i care. I am really excited since tonight me taylor mike and quick are all going out after my meet and Taylor's game. I really hope that everything works out and they hit it off. If not there will always be someone else.
I am sitting in photo class right now writing in my journal and i keep on getting stares from this kid next to me who keeps on reading my journal. I give him looks back but i don't think that he gets the hint. not to look. So i thought i'd type this and since he is reading what i am saying. get the hint. I think he got it since he's nodding his head.
Okay so now that i have my privacy again i can continue with what i was saying. This Sunday will be 3 months with my boyfriend. I am so happy and i love him so much. He's cute. I will add a picture of him later on. when i get one. Some random things that i have been thinking recently are how i need to improve on my studying habits. I never really study but i manage to do well in school. Well for the main part. The only class that i do not do that well in is..Italian. I mean i know some things. Not good things but if i went to Italy today with the knowledge that i have. I'd be shot. I only really know curses and slang. Some verbs and stuff but not too much.
Did i mention that i hate school. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it.
Jan. 22nd, 2004
12:10 pm - Dammit
Apparently my deepest darkest secret is..
YOU ARE MARRIED TO A WoODCHUCK!!!
what's YOUR deepest secret?
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I don't even remember getting married. Those damn woodchucks. So sly.
Jan. 21st, 2004
09:47 pm - dizzy as sun stroke.
Okay. so today was a boring day. There wasn't really a lot going on and going to school was a waste. The whole entire school sat in the overheated assembly hall to listen to some Jerzee Devil talk about his life. When he was supposed to be talking about drugs.Go figure. So as usual i passed out like i always do in school.As my father would say."what the hell are you doing sleeping in school!" I mean it's not like i slept threw something that was way important. But moving on. I had a swim meet tonight. We lost as usual, but i am mad at myself. In the middle of my 100 fly i make a fuck up and got 5th when i could have had 4th. I missed it by -that much. I was so close and i could have had that girl. Ugh. If only i make my turns faster and my start longer. I mean like kick longer than i do. I would have beaten her. That is something to keep in mind for conferences which are this weekend. Im mad nervous for that. I mean so many people. I just hate haveing people watch me. But at least i am doing something productive. I swam decently tonight. I mean no record times but a vast improvement from the begining of the season. I'm really excited for Friday because 1. we are swimming East Side. 2. I am getting a new mattress and 3. I have plans lol. Rawr I can't belive that tomorrow is Thursday. This week went by so quick. I honestly thought that it would be long. But what a shocker. Grrr im gonna go write my paper for english becasue god knows that i will not want to do it later. Peace Out.
Hair Color: --Brown with red high lites.
Eye Color: --hazel.
Height: --5'1..yes i know that i'm short.
Weight: --ill never tell.
Zodiac Sign: --Libra or Scorpio..depends.
Where were you born: --Jerzee.the armpit of America.
Parents/Guardians name?: --beth and ira.
Who's your favorite?: --depends on what im asking permission for.
Do you like your family?: --depends.we all have our moments.
Are you ticklish?: -- are you kidding? Im extremely ticklish.
What's your best feature?: -- my boobs. and the frekel in the middle of my nose.
Worst Feature:? – my no ass.
Get 5 friends to give you one word that describes you:nice, unique, funny, sexy, whore.
Music Genre: emo. and anything that has a good beat that i can shake my tooshie to.
Band: AFI, Yellowcard, Something Corporate, Motion City Soundtrack, Incubus, Simple Plan, All American Rejects, Rufio, Zwan, The Starting Line, Dashboard, Brand New.Too many more to list.
Solo Artist: grrr. i have no idea.
Song: at the moment: Megalomaniac.
Band That Broke Up: none.
Cd: Yellowcard.Ocean Avenue.
Swear Word: dammit.
Day of the week: Wends.Its hump day.
Movie: Sliding Doors, Empire Records.
Junk Food: Juji Fruit.
Food: Sushi, or Taco.
Veggie: carrots. cucumber.
Ice Cream: mint chocolate chip.
Cartoon: Chip and Dale.
TV show: Ehh. whatever is on. i watch.
Celebrity(including musicians and actors/actresses): Eric Ballfour.
Sport: Swimming. Volleyball.
Name for a Girl: Madison, Mackenzie.
Name for a Boy: Justin, Jacob, Joshuah.
Place to Be: my bed.
This Or That: this.
Serious or Funny?: funny.
Friends or Family?: friends.
Contacts or Glasses?: contacts.
Computer or Phone?: phone.
MTV or BET?: MTV.
Sneakers or Sandals?: sandals.
Hot or Cold?: cold.
Me or You?: me.
Right or Left?: right.
Sad or Happy?: happy.
Mad or Glad?: glad.
Running or Walking?: walking.
Coach Potato or Athletic?: coach potato. but i do sports.
Living Forever or Dieing Eventually?: living forever.
Talking Forever or Odd Moments of Silence?: talking forever.
Love or Lust?: love.
Newspaper or Magazine?: magazine.
Nerd or Jock?: little of both.
Hot and Stupid OR Ugly and Smart?: Hot and Smart.
Loud or Quiet?: loud.
Photos of Friends or Paintings of Friends?: photos.
Night or Day?: night.
Short or Tall?: short.
Milk/Chocolate Milk: chocolate milk.
Green Day/Blink 182: green day.
Mall/Department Stores: mall.
Half Empty/Half Full: half empty.
Christmas/Valentines Day: christmas. althought im a jew.
Lake or Ocean?: ocean.
Never or Always?: always.
Stop or Go?: go.
Basement or Attics?: basement.
Small Apartment or Big Mansion? big mansion.
Conformist or Non-Conformist?: non conformist.
blood or vomit: blood.
ass or feet—I : ass.
Who Are Your Best Friends?: they know who they are.
Who Are Your CLOSE Friends?: they know who they are.
What do you have in common with them(or he/she)?: many unexplainable things.
What do you like to do with them?: have fun.
Who is the Loudest?: me.
The Wierdest?: mike.
The Sweetest?: shira.mike.
Most Outgoing?: me.shira.tay.
Shyest?: everyone has their shy moments.
Most Athletic?: shira.tay(cheerleader lol).
Most Trustworthy?: shira.
Best Eyes?: mike.
Best Smile?: meh.
Best Style?: depends.
Funniest: me and shira together. or tay and i together.
Dumbest: blonde moments.
Smartest: all of us.
Best Laugh: dunno.
Funnest to be with: shira.
Who Pisses you off the most: we all have our moments.
Spend Most Time With?: everyone is equal.
Who's the person you talk to most on the phone?: duno.
Do you have any friends that you have never seen?: yes.
Who You Would Risk Your Life For?: those that i love.
Which Friend Would You Bring if You Were Stranded on an Island? shira.
Would You Lie To Help Get Your Friends Out of Trouble?: yes.
If you woke up one morning and one of your legs were gone...who would you call first?: mommy!
Who's your worst enemy?: jackie.
What don't you like about them?: too much to say.
Was he/she your friend before?: yes.
Are they a dumbass?: yes.
Did they do something to you, or do you just not like them cause of their stupidity?: did many things.
Have you Ever
Drank Alcohol: yes.
Gotten Drunk: yes.
Gotten High: no.
Dyed Your Hair: no.
Kissed the Same Sex: yes.
How many different people: 1.
Thought about Killing yourself: yes.
Hated yourself: yes.
Liked someone way older than you: yes.
Liked someone way younger than you: no.
Broken a Bone: nope.
Had Surgery: no.
Talked to Strangers: yes.
Ran Away From Home: yes.
Did the opposite your parents told you to do/not to do: yes.
Sang in public: yes.
Worn a Dress: yes.
Worn a Tie: yes.
Worn a Suit: no.
Gotten in to a physical fight: yes.
Hurt someone emotionally: yes.
Hurt someone physically: yes.
Made someone cry: yes.
Said you loved someone: yes.
Said you hated someone: yes.
Talked to a stuffed animal: yes.
Talked to yourself: yes.
Driven a car: yes.
Danced in public: yes.
Danced when no one was looking: yes.
Sang when no one was listening: yes.
Done Drugs?(if so which ones) none. im straight.
Had Sex?: yes.
Wished You Were of the Other Gender?: yes.PMS.
Been Of the Other Gender?: no.
Had A Sex Change?: no.
Been In Love?: yes i am.
Been Arrested?: no.
Killed Someone?: no.
Ridden a Rhino?: no.
Gotten in Trouble for Something You Didn't Do?: no.
Watched Porn?: yes.
Been in A Porn?: no.
Been to a Concert? (which ones?) yes.warped.yellowcard.and more.
Been Put on Medicine You Didn't Need? no.
Thought You Were Fat When You Weren't? no.
Like People Of the Other Gender?: yes.
Like People of the Same Gender?: no.
Like To Give Hugs?: yes.
Cry Alot?: lately.
Have Stuffed Animals? yes How Many?: yes.5.
Wish To Be Someone Else?: no.
Love Anyone? yes.i love everyone.
Whats the most interesting thing that happened to you in kinder garden: i dont remember.
If you have one more day to live.. what would you do: dont want to think about it.
Do You Believe in Santa Clause?: no.
Do You Believe in the Easter Bunny?: no.
Do you Believe in Fate?: yes.
Do You Believe in the Tooth Fairy?: no.
Do You Believe In Aliens?: no.
What Makes You REALLY mad?: parents.
What Makes You Cry?: boys. movies.
What you want to be when you grow up?: hmmm a killer.no i dont know yet.
Where do you want to go to college?: Indiana. URI. PSU
Do you believe in Love: yes.
Love at first site? yes.
Your Definition of Love: When you can only think about one person all the time and it starts to effect you work.
Your definition of a true friend: someone who is there for you no matter what and will try to cheer u up at yer bad times.shira.
Jan. 19th, 2004
10:27 pm - you make me feel like im alive
Last night was the worst night of my life..It all started with a
big blowout fight with my mother..and ended with me storming
outta the house. That is something which has never happened
before. As i was walking down the street and my mother is
calling after me to come home..i hear my phone ringing. I look
at the caller id and see that Shira is calling me. I answer the
phone and all she heard was crying. She instantly hung up and
her father drove her over to get me. I am so happy that she
called me at that time. If she didn't. I would have wound up at
her house anyway, since that is the only place i would want to
go. After she calmed me down her father drove me back home where
I was forced to stay until Mike drove over and rescued me. I am
so thankful that i have him. We drove to double D's and got
coffee and were later joined by my buddies Kunal, Rahul and
these 2 girls. We all were talking and i felt at ease and
secure. When we all separated around 12.. I came home to find
myself awake as ever and not able to sleep. Mike and i talked
till at least 3 a.m and i was still ranting about
everything..All he could say was "Baby, calm down." Just hearing
him say this too me makes me happy. I just like having someone
there to care and tell me everything is going to be alright. So
moving on to today, which is Monday..there was no school and i
got to sleep in late. I did some more..wait take a guess at what
i did. If you guessed S.A.T practice tests..you were right! My
scores were pretty god damn decent and i of course rubbed it in
my mothers face, saying that i did not need to do the ridiculous
amount that she insists on. Mike also dropped by and we had the
most amazing time. I won't go into details.*wink wink* He makes
me feel so alive and hes perfect. I am in love...
Jan. 18th, 2004
07:38 pm - Snow
Don't you hate when it snows
and your stuck inside listening
to your parents ranting on about
everything you do? Well today was
one of those days. I actually spent
the whole day sitting in a chair.
Spilling out my brains onto the kitchen
table. S.A.T practice tests were the cause
for my misfortune. I honestly don't understand
what the big deal about the S.A.T's are.
Actually. Scratch that, it is what decides
on the major part of you life..like where you
go to school. My mother and father are like the
S.A.T nazi's..this is what they live for. They are
obsessed with it and recently all i have been
doing is eating, sleeping and doing practice tests.
Okay..im sick of ranting now about this..so on a
brighter note..it stopped snowing and the roads are
cleared so that means i get to go out tonight.
Hopefully I will see my Mike or Shira. They are the
only two people who know how to make me smile. Yes
i smile a lot but these people give me a reason and
assure me that everything is going to be alright. I
recently have spoken to my sister and i have been
thinking a lot about her. I miss her so much. I am
sorta glad that she is gone because there has been
less fighting between us since she is gone. Our
relationship has become so much better and we can
now actually call each other friends, and not say
oh "I hate her." Okay so now i totally changed
moods and need to leave. Why does my mother need to
be so difficult? I did all that she asked me today.
I did all the work she wanted and now she wants
more! I can't take this BS! She is never satisfied.
That bitch! I hate my mother so much...All i know
is that i need to get out of this house right now
before it is too late...